I Failed State Boards on the First Try, What do I do Now?

After writing this testimony God dropped this scripture in my spirit.  
James 1: 2-8 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do."



I graduated nursing school December 15th, started studying for the nclex the following week on and off for about 3 weeks. I took my nclex on Saturday January 27th @ 8am. Literally finished my test with 4 min left. Want to know how many questions I received?! Yeah I had 265, ALL of the questions you could get. My brain literally stopped working and during the test I just wanted it be over. Afterwards I walked to my car and literally started bawling. I called my friend Hannah and cried about how hard it was and how I had received all of the questions. I was feeling so defeated and I have no idea why I wasn't Believing that God wouldn't let me fail. (girl you crazy for doubting God) that night I Got on a plane to Atlanta to look for a place to live because I would be moving in two weeks to start my job. Two days later I woke up to pay that good ole $7.95 for my quick results. I pressed submit and it said "FAIL" in all CAPS my heart dropped to the bottom of my pinky toe lol. I was like "dude I failed" I said "Tayler I failed my test" omg I can't Believe it. Why me ? How could I fail ? I'm so used to passing every test I take. I'm so used to excelling in my education. I literally started Bawling again ! I didn't want to lose my Job, I didn't know what I was going to do. I was literally sad for a whole two days. But guess what ?! I still signed a lease to an apartment in Atlanta believing that I would be here and working at my job soon. It's something about failure that brings you closer to God. I'm so grateful for my afflictions, without them I have no idea where I would be. In between the time i failed and the time I took it again, God stretched me. I was forced to trust in him. He increased my faith like never before ! He showed me how he brought me out situations where I couldn't see my way out. He reminded me that he was God and he can do exceedingly and abundantly above all we can think or ask. I sought God in the time of my failure. I asked him to show me the way to study so that I can pass when I retake my exam in 45 days, I asked him to give me discipline to study and take all distractions away. I moved to Atlanta and literally started studying Monday - Friday from 8 am to 5 pm like it was my job ! My faith level was so high ! Nobody could tell me I was failing that test again. I started repeating Gods word back to him. I told him that he said "he knows the thoughts and plans for my life which are to prosper me and not to harm me" I told him he said "if I delight myself in him he would give me desires of my heart" I started thanking him in advance. I started speaking that I was a Registered Nurse. On March 23rd I woke up happier than a nanny goat lol ! I left the house early and then boom Atlanta traffic almost had me late for my exam lol ! ( I can't deal) @ 8 am I started taking the nclex for the second time. The test started and I was thinking to myself " oh I'm for sure only getting 75 questions" and then the test went past 75 then past 100 then past 180 then to 200 and I thought okay really I just know I'm getting 265 again. On the last stretch I was telling God I won't give up ! I'm still depending on you. I know I'm gonna pass. Finally after 265 questions I was done ! I literally started laughing because I said just like I failed in 265 questions, God you are about to show yourself real and allow me to pass in 265 questions. And today March 25th I checked my results and I Passed !!!!!!! Literally I can't thank God enough!!! I keep thanking him for blessing me. I just want to encourage anybody who is studying for boards or any test not to give up ! Trust God and keep the faith. God does not operate in doubt and you can't succeed in life without faith. God is bigger than you think. He can do anything just hold him to his word ❤️ P.S God allowed me to keep my position as a mother baby nurse. ( when God opens a door no man can close it.) ahhh Thank you father, I love you with all of me.
I'm so grateful for my family and friends, my support system is bomb.com 💕
Now allow me to reintroduce myself: Kayler Stephens, BSN, RN 💕

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