You think they will like this? What do you think people are going to say? Do you think people will take this wrong? What if they talk about me? You think I will get a lot of responses? You think they will like my picture? Do I sound stupid?
Why !!!! Why do we feel the need to be ACCEPTED so bad? I kid you not a lot of these thoughts run through my mind when it comes to people and social media. I’m going to be transparent and tell you guys that this is one of my biggest struggles. I’m working on being FREE from people and what they think of me. I’m always wondering if people will like something or if they will accept what I’m doing. I’m always careful to make sure I don’t “hurt” someone’s feelings. Even when starting this blog; there are times when I’m like omg do you think they will like that post? Do I sound too much like a “goody two shoe?” What if people don’t like what I write about? Maybe it's just me lol but I’m so over it.
I told myself that enough is enough! Enough of pointing out every flaw, enough of feeling like people have to like everything I do, enough of wanting acceptance from MAN. I’m accepted by God and that’s all that matters. I honestly believe that the wanting to feel “accepted” spirit stops people from reaching their full potential and carrying out fully what God has called them to do. I’m at the point where I’m like Tayler you rather God be pleased with you than trying to please MAN.
I’ve learned that you have to be confident in who you are and the person God has created you to be! You have to know that you are FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made by GOD. For he formed your inward parts and knitted you together in your Mother’s womb. – Psalms 139:13-14 (That’s sounds like somebody special doesn’t it 😊) You are ENOUGH AND SPECIAL to God. If God placed something in you, you do what he has called you to do no matter what others are saying. “Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”- Philippians 1-6
This is something I’m working on daily guys. I told the Lord that I want to be FREE from people and what they think of me. I no longer want the fear of what others will think to hold me back from reaching my full potential. Fear can cause me to miss out on blessings and cause me to walk in disobedience. Just imagine if God has been telling me to say or do something and I’m like nahhh God . . . You never know why God is telling you to do something. Maybe you have gone through a depression state and God wants you to share it because someone around you may be dealing with that same thing and your testimony can set them free and be a blessing to them! But you’re like nahh God, what will they think of me now if I say I battled depression in the past? Uhh, who cares what they think! God doesn’t just tell you to do things for no reason. It’s a purpose to everything. Your testimony can save someone's life! While you’re embarrassed, there are other people out there feeling the same way (just know you are never alone) and they are waiting for someone to take that step and open their mouths and say something.
I know this may be off topic but I wanted to share something with you guys. In undergrad, I remember one day I was running late for class. I had gotten out the house at my regular time but traffic was so backed up and I was getting so annoyed saying “Now Lord you know I need to get to class, I left at a good time and you know this professor takes attendance!” The way UT parking was set up you had to get there early to get a parking spot and I still wasn’t on campus yet. I finally made it, I was late but I made it lol. As I was walking to the building my class was in I saw one of my friends and she said omg I’ve been trying to get in contact with you! I wanted to talk to you because I know you’ve dealt with a close family members death before and my dad recently died and I’m just so sad and don’t know what to do. Right then and there I was like ahhhh ha God this is what you were doing! If I had gotten to campus at my regular time I would have missed my friend. Y’all this made my whole day because I was so grateful that God used me to help and be a blessing to my friend. I was able to pray with her and just talk to her and comfort her. SEE you never know what God is doing! (okay back on topic lol)
My prayer is that we as your children understand that we are enough God. That we realize that we are fearfully and wonderfully made in your image daddy. I pray that we leave that spirit of wanting to be accepted in the past and we move forward with knowing that we are accepted by YOU! I pray that we will no longer be afraid to walk in our callings and do what it is you have called us to do. I pray that we will no longer be bound by fear but that we come to the realization of who we really are in you. Lord, I pray that whatever you tell us to do we are obedient. Thank you for being with us every step of the way and for guiding us through life, Holy Spirit! FOREVER grateful to be your child GOD😊
I honestly feel so much better after sharing this with you guys.
I love you guys and God loves you guys soooooo much
Can you be cool and saved? uhm yes because we are lol! I remember back in college we wanted to go to parties, and hang out because that was "the fun thing to do in college" But when we got to parties me and Tayler would literally say to each other, " I want to go home" it was like we didn't belong, we didn't fit in with "the crowd". In 2014 we lost our little sister in a drunk driving accident and that's when things started to actually make sense. During that time I spent so much time with God, he began to speak to me in the darkest time of my life. I began to meditate on scriptures such as "come out from them and be separate, Touch no unclean thing and I will receive you." 2 Corinthians 6:17. I felt I was different, I wanted to be different, I wanted to change. I wanted to please God in everything that I did. When you spend time with God, you get to know him on another level. I began to experience God for real, I knew him on a different level than before. I gained so much more love for him, and I desired to be the best daughter I could. During that time I felt isolated from the world but so loved by Jesus. I lost friends, relationships, etc. but I gained a love, desire and burning for God that was far more better than those things I'd lost. I began to tell God I want to be a light to others and when people see me I want them to see you, Lord. I want people to know that you are real and that you love them like crazy. I wanted to have an impact on people who didn't know God or who "didn't believe in him" I remember when our friends used to say " oh you can't do that around Kayler and Tayler." I always asked God why did people feel that way. Was it because you were in the midst? Better believe it!!!
Even though we were pursuing God we wanted to enjoy life at the same time. So we started to ask God to give us fun things to do while pursuing him. God allowed us to travel, he put so many people in our life that would bless us tremendously. We found little things to do in our spare time that we did have (Becuase at UT the struggle was real, and I was always studying lol!) We decided to try new food places, travel, (this was a big one) also if you look on facebook you can totally find fun things to do in your area. God told me you don't have to go out to have fun. I remember 6th street used to be the thing in college, but again we didn't like that feeling, and Also my lungs couldn't handle all of that smoke lol. ( too much bumping and jumping down that street for me personally. haha ) But honestly, I just want to say, as Christians, we can't do things of the world. we have to be separated so that when people see us they know its a difference. When you chose to serve God fully, you began to be exposed to some great things. I always tell people I'm riding with God until the wheels fall off, and when they fall off I'm going to fly with him ( because I don't walk anywhere) hahaha.
I want to ask, What Are You Speaking? The word says that life and death lie in the power of the tongue – Proverbs 18:21; so, are you choosing to speak life or death? Are you speaking positively or negatively? Are you speaking like you already have the victory or defeated? COME ON Y’ALL. Especially on this journey through medicine and life, in general, you must decide to speak life. My family and friends know that around me we don’t do all that defeated talk. I belong to God and I trust him. If he is my father, he will take care of me so I have nothing to worry about. Remember when you were a kid? You didn’t worry about things because you knew your parents would take care of everything. If someone did something to you, you felt safe in your parent’s arms knowing they had your back. That’s how we must be with the Lord. My daddy has my back and I know he is going to come through for me. He has never failed me so I’m going to continue to trust him.
If you read my accepted to PA School blog, you will see how I kept saying “I believe I’m going to get accepted” I wasn’t talking defeated. Sometimes we must change what we say because again Life and death lies in the power of our tongue. There is going to be times where it seems like you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was speaking that I’m getting accepted to PA for almost a year. I didn’t see anything happening at first, but I didn’t allow that to change my way of thinking. I didn’t allow that to change what I was saying. You may not see the end right off the bat, but you must trust God and hold him to his word. This is where faith comes into play. Sometimes God will hold things off to see if you are going to trust him! How can God trust you with that business if you’re always talking defeated? How can he trust you to be able to save lives if you give up easily? (I sure wouldn’t want a medical provider that gives up easily). Even if you don’t see it you have to keep saying it until you see it. If you have enough faith to believe it GOD has enough power to do it. Let me tell you guys this story:
After I graduated College I was still trying to figure out what I was going to do. One thing I knew for sure was that I wasn’t going back home! I’d been thinking about scribing. I was getting ready to move to Nashville where I didn’t know anybody (but when you know the Lord he will place people in your path to help you!!) I kept saying I’m going to become a medical scribe while I prepare myself for health professional school. Everyone would ask me what I’m doing after I graduate, and I would say I’m going to scribe. Baby, I didn’t know anybody in Nashville, I didn’t know where I was going to scribe but I just knew I was going to be scribing! I sent an email to one of my mentors who is a physician telling him I want to scribe and that I was moving to Nashville and if he had any advice. Well, he told me he had a friend that was the medical director in the Emergency Department at a hospital there and that he would put me in contact with him. Well, guess what! I got in contact with the doctor and was able to get the job! Let me tell y’all how amazing God is, I didn’t have to interview or anything. God is so amazing because before I even knew I needed patient care hours for PA school GOD had already given me the scribing job which was a way I could get my hours! God knew exactly what he was doing. See what trusting God, speaking life, having faith and doing the work (yes because faith without works is dead, you can’t be speaking stuff and not doing your part) will get you!
So, I want to encourage you guys; don’t give up. Speak life, speak positive things and Watch God do it! Love you guys and God loves you soooo much!
I’m speaking it that I’ve lost 20 pounds hahahahahahahah Let me speak it and do my part by eating healthy and working out. Y’all pray for me!